Life isn't that easy

I thought life was easy. It looked complicated becoz humans doesn't want it the simple way, but I was wrong. It was never easy from the start, it's becoz I never had the taste of reality. Finally, got it today.

I realised how reality bite. I realised the more you act like you've forgot and can't remember a shit, don't help at all. People that you don't expect, would turned to become who you don't want to meet. Is it destiny? Or am I just being paranoid?

The more I desire a peaceful life, I realised the more god doesn't want to give it to be. The more I fight for it, the more people think I don't deserve. The more I try to change, the more the world want me dead.

Looking at the time, reminds me of how close 11am is, HQ first thing in the morning. Really hope to walk out of that place once and for all. I never want to turn back, becoz just with the look at it irks me, just the smell of it, makes me feel sick. This obviously shows how much I condemn that bloody place. Really, for one last time and I'm never going back there.

(Maybe it's my fault to let you in. Maybe it's my fault to disappoint you. Maybe it's my fault to say all these. But it's definately my fault for lovin' you) This don't come easy, just hope that neither of us give up. This battle isn't easy, but if we work together I'm sure we'll get over this obstacle soon.

Good night, world. I really have to go. (L)